Footsteps

I am slowly walking my way back here.
Reminding myself of the power of writing.
I spent three years exploring my life in this spot.
Why does it elude me now?
Do I not need it any more?
Do I think it is a waste of time?
Am I distracted by other writing spaces?
I am curious.
I am still confused by my resistance.
I'll leave it at that!

When the Mood Strikes

Happiness and moonshine has been sitting here quietly and consistently being source of both memory and consternation for me. I love this place I created. It was a source of amazing growth for me and it so served a huge purpose in what I am creating today. I want to write here, but then I want to write there...then here...then there.....the there has won out lately and it still is possibly where most of my writing will sit....but then there is here...this place where I get to really just show up at a moments notice and write about pretty much nothing and it feels good. It feels really good to me to write in this story telling way. I actually also write in a personal journal that I use as my morning pages....and even that doesn't create the same sensation as this place. So...how about this; Why don't I say that I will use this space, for now, as my go to 'fix' for when I want to make 'much ado about nothing'. That feels good. Thanks for waiting.

Thank you for being here gracefully waiting and being a source of both growth and memory for me. For now...I write here when the mood hits.

Hello...and...goodbye

If you've landed on this website, please stop and browse a bit. This is a 3 year "in the making" site where I did some soul searching, inspiring, goofing off, appreciating and so much more. It was my virtual playground.

I have since moved my writing to my main website http://www.lauraenglish.net/ and only write there now. There is a lot of content here (over 800 posts) and some of it might be interesting to you....so poke around if you wish...or jump in at my other site!

I hope you'll join me!


If you do or if you don't, I wish you peace, love, happiness...and moonshine! (how cheesy right?).

A blur

Why I haven't Written by Laura English

I am sad for April's passing. It was a blur. April held a visit from my parents, normal 'life stuff', calls with friends and clients, photography appointment, a visit to my mom's, and an 11 year old birthday sleepover . All of the normal ingredients of a life being lived. My disappointment is that I feel I wasn't as 'present' as normal. I know I have more 'normal' life to live...I intend to notice more...until I don't...and that is OK.

Back to normal.

Gratitude x 11

1. Sunshine


2. Cardinals


3. Long walks


4. Service to others


5. Flexibility of schedule


6. Husband who can hold down the fort


7. My mom's improving health


8. My dad, brother and nephew enjoying Italy


9. My other brother and family enjoying CA


10. Time with my mom and aunt


11. My great life

Back to normal

I have forgotten where I've been

I have forgotten where I was going

I have forgotten what I've learned

I have forgotten what I want

I have forgotten what I stand for

I have forgotten what I've gotten rid of

I have forgotten because...

my mind was on vacation....

I have NOT forgotten how to get back to normal...

It just takes time!

Gratitude X 11

1. I love facebook birthdays!
2. I love celebrating with friends
3. I love how excited my kids are for MY birthday
4. I love that I got a Daphne plant...it smells so yummy
5. I love that I got a new blender...I am a green smoothie maker now
6. I love that I got a new point and shoot camera (ours broke in Vietnam)
7. I love that I got a gift of a reflexology appointment from my dear friend
8. I love that I got a BEEYOOTIFUL bouquet of roses from my brother and his family
9. I love that my in-laws spoiled me with new lotions and other treats
10. I love that my mommy and daddy came to visit for my birthday
11. I love BIRTHDAYS (and jellybeans...got those too).

THANK YOU EVERYONE for being so kind to ME!

Jump

I bought a mini trampoline

It is in the middle of my family room

My daughter bounces and sings to pop music

It makes me smile

Unfortunately this trampoline isn't pretty

What is a mother to do?

For now, it is a central piece of furniture in our house

Kids need to bounce, and jump, and sing, and dance, and hop, and skip...that is their job

A week of it

I am declaring today

That this week will be great

I have things on my plate

That I love (and some I hate)

By the end of the week

My age changes (to 42 to be exact)

And I plan to celebrate!

STARTING NOW

This was an unintentional poem ( and not a good one...but a FUN one)

Gratitude X 11

1. SUNSHINE
2. BLUE SKY
3. FLOWERS BLOOMING
4. ROBINS FLYING
5. EAGLE SIGHTINGS
6. BIKE RIDING
7. FULL MOONS
8. SUN GLASSES
9. VITAMIN D
10. SMELLING FLOWERS
11. DID I SAY SUNSHINE?

Sunshine

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy! Today was a gloriously sunny day. I stood in my front yard with pastie white limbs exposed to soak in the Vitamin D. I am sure I was a sight and perhaps the neighbors were a little leery...but I LOVED IT. It is amazing what one day of nice weather can do for the countless days of 'water boarding' we just experienced. I am putting my order in for more!!!!

No sleep 'til Brooklyn

No sleep last night. Very sleepy tonight. Not much longer for this day.

Gratitude X 11

1. Rainbows after hail
2. Sun after rain
3. Crocus sightings
4. Walks
5. Talks
6. Re connecting
7. Resting
8. Adventures
9. Laughter of children
10. Hugs
11. Plans for my week

Hours and hours

I just got off the phone with one of my new friends I've brought into my life. We went on and on and before I knew it, we'd been on the phone for 3 hours. It was as if time had stood still, but it didn't. I love those kind of connections ...however, they're not conducive for getting 'other stuff' done. I guess all things need to come in moderation (or not).

New perspective

My big computer crashed.

I now am using an "old" laptop of my husbands.

I no longer sit in my office.

I sit in the kitchen and watch hummingbirds.

It feels like a nice new perspective.

I wonder if I ever go back to my office.

Interesting.

Brain Hurts

Today I dealt with the nitty gritty of my business. It felt very much like a challenging puzzle and sometimes I felt really uncomfortable. But, in the end, I feel proud for sticking with it and now I know what to do differently. So weirdly, as much as it was uncomfortable it was also extremely rewarding....and I have a lot more to learn...and I probably could have done it better... but hey! I'm human.

Peaceful

I've got a peaceful easy feeling today! I am going to revel in it! Off to meditate and express gratitude for my awesome life.

Gratitude X 11

1. Walks in the snow
2. Robins with big bellies
3. Crocus peaking through snow
4. Hummingbird visits to the feeder
5. Support from colleagues
6. Movie night with daughter
7. Playdates and parties for my kids
8. Plethora of books to read
9. Inspiring videos
10. Unlimited access to inspiring writing
11. Writing again

Well Hu-lo

Wowee cazowee it has been awhile since I've been over here OR over there. I have 'excuses' but really, if I wanted to be here and there I would have made time...so excuses fall flat. I am kind of 'just getting by' with all of my activities so the extra stuff have fallen by the wayside. Somehow I'm either avoiding or not able...not sure which is true-r. So...really, I'm just stopping in to say hi. I'm still kicking. Stuff is 'rumbling' in me and I'm making moves on some fun activities in my life. I've finished some books, I played the lottery and created a fun story of my winnings (key word "story"), I've walked in the snow a bunch, I've slept a lot better, I am bringing meditation into my life, I am in a class with some great women, I connect regularly with the people I love....that is where I am...my actions are not stalled, but I do believe my thinking has been...I'm working through that now!

Reading about Meaning

I am reading Victor Frankl's book Man's Search for Meaning!

It is short

It is powerful

It is stressful

It is insightful

I must go

I want to read more!